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Am I already addicted to gambling?
In my recent post I talked about the difference of obsession and Addiction and now I am having my gambling confession.
This all started last year when I got invited to try Windice. My gambling journey began. But if last year up til February or March this year I was able to manage my gambling habit and not waste more than what I already have in my Windice balance, now I can no longer control my spending. Months ago, I would risk only my winnings and if I win more I'd cashout but if it turns zero I'd stop. I achieved that goal until few months ago. Before, I kept telling myself to never try playing or gambling in more than 1 casino, that Windice is enough. And that play only if forum and tg challenge is up and cashout after.
Never expected that I'd start getting addicted to gambling, playing more and chasing my loses, be it here in Windice or in other platform. I never saw it coming. I'd start risking all my crypto balance, depositing them back just right after cashing out trying my luck and see where my game will take me. I'd gamble it all in one roll using a 2x multiplier. I'd get green but most of the time I'd get red. Lol. Just few days ago, I risked these 180doges I won from the telegram hunt. i chased that 1000x in Dice to see if I can complete that forum challenge but unluckily it ate all my doge balance. Good thing I decided to not gamble my XRP's the same day.
Aside from that, I also cant help playing in these gambling platforms that caters slots games. Just this month I lost almost 200$ trying my luck in these slots. I used some of my salary to play and even started loaning in one of the loaning applications just so I can have something to gamble and see if I can multiply what I cashed in. I never thought that after few tries and successful bets, I'd be playing even more which lead to my funds slowly getting eaten. I cant control my gambling habit, I just noticed myself cashing in again trying to chase my loses and would just go back to reality when I already have a very few to zero balance in my digital wallet. Everyday I even tell myself to rest from gambling for the day and just come back and try again another day but sadly this reminder is useless because again, I cant control my gambling addiction. That when I lose some of my deposits, I would try again but in a different casino. And If I win big I still feel dissatisfied with what I won I still wanted to get more. I am getting really greedy.
My gambling habbit is becoming very serious and very bad that it affects not only my finances but my mental health as well. My sleeping hours even started to become shorter day by day just because my mind keeps thinking all about gambling.
I want this bad habbit to stop. I hope someday this will finally stop.
I am sharing this gambling addiction I have not for everyone to have pity on me or laugh at me but for you guys to be aware what these gambling addiction can ruin one's life, financially and mentally.
Know I am not proud of this addiction I have because I know this aint healthy.
And I am doing this confession here because I feel like I need to since this forum is already like my diary but an open diary and I want you all to see how gambling addiction is capable of ruining us badly.
Let's all play for fun only dont gamble too much and play responsibly.
In my recent post I talked about the difference of obsession and Addiction and now I am having my gambling confession.
This all started last year when I got invited to try Windice. My gambling journey began. But if last year up til February or March this year I was able to manage my gambling habit and not waste more than what I already have in my Windice balance, now I can no longer control my spending. Months ago, I would risk only my winnings and if I win more I'd cashout but if it turns zero I'd stop. I achieved that goal until few months ago. Before, I kept telling myself to never try playing or gambling in more than 1 casino, that Windice is enough. And that play only if forum and tg challenge is up and cashout after.
Never expected that I'd start getting addicted to gambling, playing more and chasing my loses, be it here in Windice or in other platform. I never saw it coming. I'd start risking all my crypto balance, depositing them back just right after cashing out trying my luck and see where my game will take me. I'd gamble it all in one roll using a 2x multiplier. I'd get green but most of the time I'd get red. Lol. Just few days ago, I risked these 180doges I won from the telegram hunt. i chased that 1000x in Dice to see if I can complete that forum challenge but unluckily it ate all my doge balance. Good thing I decided to not gamble my XRP's the same day.
Aside from that, I also cant help playing in these gambling platforms that caters slots games. Just this month I lost almost 200$ trying my luck in these slots. I used some of my salary to play and even started loaning in one of the loaning applications just so I can have something to gamble and see if I can multiply what I cashed in. I never thought that after few tries and successful bets, I'd be playing even more which lead to my funds slowly getting eaten. I cant control my gambling habit, I just noticed myself cashing in again trying to chase my loses and would just go back to reality when I already have a very few to zero balance in my digital wallet. Everyday I even tell myself to rest from gambling for the day and just come back and try again another day but sadly this reminder is useless because again, I cant control my gambling addiction. That when I lose some of my deposits, I would try again but in a different casino. And If I win big I still feel dissatisfied with what I won I still wanted to get more. I am getting really greedy.
My gambling habbit is becoming very serious and very bad that it affects not only my finances but my mental health as well. My sleeping hours even started to become shorter day by day just because my mind keeps thinking all about gambling.
I want this bad habbit to stop. I hope someday this will finally stop.
I am sharing this gambling addiction I have not for everyone to have pity on me or laugh at me but for you guys to be aware what these gambling addiction can ruin one's life, financially and mentally.
Know I am not proud of this addiction I have because I know this aint healthy.
And I am doing this confession here because I feel like I need to since this forum is already like my diary but an open diary and I want you all to see how gambling addiction is capable of ruining us badly.
Let's all play for fun only dont gamble too much and play responsibly.